i woke up today asking myself " what's my aim in life?"
i realised i got no answer to it. i lost my aim. i feel so lost and out of place.
i'm wasting every second of my life, looking forward to nothing.
i may look happy and cheerful outside, but i'm empty in the inside. i particularly lost every aim and the meaning of living.
wooolala ~i can play back audition already :D using my brother's computer. happy happy . went to play with shirly and realised i got the same taste as her -.- we actually bought the same cash item except for the hair.
afternoon went to cwp to find kew and huihan. HUIHAN BIRTHDAY :D meet them and they called william to go cwp meet also.
went to the supermarket near kew house and buy food. going to go kew house for steamboat. hehe!
bough alot things and cake and back to kew house.prepare food and stuffs and start eating. LOL dam full. after that rest a while, the guys clear all the food. eat cake after that. then watch finish high school musical and went home.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOH HUIHAN <3. heihei de charcoal/ bangalah. x=
saturday. i was late to meet chiuhwa. so take cab and we cab down to wheelocks place. reached there only the performing group mdm foong gladys and yihuan reached. sit down there then many many more ppl reached.
was raining so the time keep delaying and delaying. went to eat at shaw house with chiuhwa and hyekel. shawal came and join us not long after. eat and talk then shawal went off first. to set up.
alot teachers went even mdm sung and ms thia.
perform perform. they were great:D twins came afterwards. walk around with lina shimei chiuhwa heykel twins and shawal.
walk walk walk and back to woodlands. went to find junhong huimin guangjin yeeliang at junhong house.
they were playing badminton. waited for them and went up his house play mahjong. lols his mama keep comment on yeeliang's skill x=
went of at about 8 or 9 . went to find shawal with chiuhwa. he said that he's boring staying at home so went out talk talk.
went to woodlands admiral park and talk. went home about 11. should alight at evergreen pri but identify wrong place and alighted at admiralty pri -.-
no choice left last coin so walked back home . reached home at about 12+
woke up at around 11. went to find tinghui alvin chiuhwa timyiong and shihui at around 12 plus if i'm not wrong at foodcourt.
only alvin ate. after finished eating , walk a while then go down find aaron and adam with tinghui. adam went to library first . accompany aaron buy things then he went to church.
the rest of us went to library to find adam. in the end decided to go the rc there to study. did a bit of amaths. then twins came down. do do do then decided go 515 . makan then all go seperate ways liaos.
went to popular with tinghui chiuwa shihui. bought thier things and left. after that went to find sophia kew and hweeliang at foodcourt. shawal and walter came after that.
hweeliang went home while we go to bukit panjang . selling icecream there. tagged with sophia.
everytime without fail, i sure see empty unit with doors and windows opened one . stupid .
sophia and me totally zero sales. haha ! sophia even bought 2 box and we ate it. rest at 2nd block 11th storey.
no mood already. then sit down there talk talk eat icecream. at around 9.45 kew and chiuhwa came. and we started crapping and laughing . went back base block. heng nv get scolded. lols.
went to bukit panjang plaza lend toilet. x=
and then went home after that. haha , swear that i'm not going to sell icecream on weekedns during schooldays .
THURSDAY. start the day with 3 periods of biology spa. mrs ram didnt come. it seems like she will absent every alternate weeks x=
combine with the odds *roll eyes* LOL x= didnt do experiment. just some calculation and stuffs.
chinese. wahlaos, got compo again D: recess makan makan.
emaths blahblah. physics spa. did the experiment. it's the experiment that always waste the most of our time.
recess again. blahblah. chemistry. didnt pay any attention to it. english was nothing. x= amaths , learn learn but halfway thru too tired and fell asleep.
school over. went down fall in. went up back to classroom after aboiut 15mins faster went back to band. combine.
halfway thru ran down to mr sim car and take mouthpieces. and szevchea the horn is repaired. haha! mr yap send it to school.
gladys left after that. played with yihuan. si belvis 洪伟杰x= dont know is write like that or not.
keep shouting each other chinese name although my chinese name not much different from my english one. talk with tinghui in between breaks.
after school. huimin punished me and terence for runnign 2 rounds. haha ! actually not punish , she only say say for fun. since nothign to do run lorhhs. long time nv run udring band already thanks to dont know which idiot. go complain what coporal punishment one. haha !
went to zalbiah's house with lina after that. choose traditional costume. dont know tmr want wear or not lehhs ): actually very enthu one. but now very little ppl wear cause tmr got drills -.-
after that walked home :D
原本是不可能得到的东西,终于得到了,不管现在还有没有,至少已曾经拥有过这一段美好回忆。
wednesday. start the day with massrun . well ~ didnt have mass run luhhs . is the choose activity thing thing .
wanted water sports one but nobody put so in the end didnt put water sports as first choice.
put golf as first choice, followed by kayaking and wind surfing . alot putting golf.
social studies. didnt pay attention. was daydreaming . getting lazier and cant be bothered by anything anymore.
chinese. go through the test we have last friday. 12.5/20 -.- it's not even an A ): recess , eat blahblah.
amaths two periods. blahblah and blablah. teach teach. english. had english spelling test. mdm saratha didnt come so mr liew relief. dont knwow hat came over me . yeeliang keep want disiao mr liew and i scolded him very sternly. these few days very short tempered.
chemistry , was busy copying geography homework. recess , doing biolody homework. biology. go thru workbook
geography. went to ava room and didnt do much things. after school went for sectionals. lazy describe what happen.
i already had enough. your want to let the family break apart, LET IT BE.
i got enough of those shouting. what did i do wrong? i merely come back home from school and i got all those stupid scoldings just because your want to vent it out on me after your two have quarreled.
dont always say want divorce and this family will be seperated and then continuing with giving those stupid excuses like what your continued staying together is because we are still young blahblahblah. i got enough of all those craps already.
your want to go on seperate ways, it's your choice. no need to continue staying because of us.
all 3 of us are old enough to take care of ourselves.
i dont want to live under a roof where there's quarreling everyday. i want peace. i also dont want to come home getting scolded for nothing.
i really got enough. i'm really fine with your seperated.
sorry , cant reach through my handphone for these few weeks or maybe even months.
too many months and bursting and some people (i know no respect) decided to confiscate my card.
parents just kids with money and authority that they can abuse.
okays whatever. as if i care. i still got my prepaid x=
anyway my prepaid number is 93718911.
who knows when i will get back. sorry !
woolala ~ first day of the week ! (:
my first day of the week is always very cheerful and hyper one but today doesn't seems so.
it's gloomy monday today. well ~ at least for my class. i felt extremely sleepy and gloomy during silent reading.
think no chance of going obs already ): heard that it's full. one of the reason why my morning is gloomy. haha-.- okays whatever.
start the day with 2 periods of amaths! @.@ what a good way to start the day. and I FOUND MY AMATHS TEXTBOOK ! woolala ~ it's inside the box of sophia's confiscated books.
bio , blahblah go thru workbook. ss discussion since our group have completed, it became a free period.
recess. eat blahblah. 2 periods mother tongue. learnt malay with the whole sec 3E in the ava room. utterly noisy.
2 periods english. reading newspaper.by right should eb 2nd recess but was cancelled due to early dismissal.
i WANT COMPLAIN ! is school want dismiss earlier de also not we choose one! why eat away our recess time. JIAKSAI! haha okays, i'm just complaining for the sake of complaining.
there's no difference of whether 2nd recess is cancelled or not.
emaths blahblah short quiz. chemistry one period. didnt really pay attention. getting restless.
school over. went to cwp with sophia meldryne hweeliang. meldryne went home. she got terrible cramps.
we to buy bubble tea first. wahlaos, on the way there people kept asking me the same question about them. and i kept repeating the same answer over and over again. it's NO.
dont know what will happen in future larhhs, but now is no. haha.
went up to power 9 with hweeliang and sophia. waited outside for kew. in the end sat outside the rent book shop.
talk and talk . finally at about 3 kew came ~ me sophia and kew pierce our earhole and went to horizon.
ate while chat. chat alot alot lehs! haha , although it's counted as me and kew de 1st time talking to hweeliang but like no barrier.
talk abbout last time paiseh things etc etc. hweeliang's a nice guy :D
sat at there for about 5hrs? wooahh ! @.@ and went home at about 9. have a nice day chatting with kew , sophia and hweeliang :D
this blog is in orange. BRIGHT EHHS ? FOR HUIMIN
Went to dinner with huimin tongtong(huimin's sis) beekian janet guangjin junhong and yeeliang at 6.
HUIMIN'S BIRTHDAY. went to eat pastamania. lols tongtong tabao mc eat at pastamania.
eat eat talktalk. yeeliang sure is very patient with kids. haha ! he entertain tontong well. LOL
went up comics connection. stay at there for very long. wanted to choose present for huimin.
but comic connection doesn't seems to have nice things for her. the cute and short one x= oh ya! she has SHRINKED ! seriously , dont believe stand beside her.
after for so longlong , didnt buy anything so bought new comics. hehe ! x=
after that she wnat go toilet so call the rest go off 1st. went toilet and accompany her buy cake and home.
going to choose nice things for her. belated present barhhs. tmr and tuesday, school ending early.
her blog wishlist got one is naruto's tshirt. anybody know where got sell ?
if dont have then go choice , go print lorhhs . add a LOVED BY BINNI on it haha ! :D
and also, where got sell the superman tshirt? haha ! the S one. i want buy >.<
okays , that's all larhhs. byebye!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TERENCE
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO , the cute and short one,HOHUIMIN,何慧敏.
woolala ~ (:start the day with 3 periods of biology spa spa spa!
do the same experiment as last week but this time is using peanut. lols it's raw i didt know then go eat thenmrs ram told it's raw-.-
then huimin hear liaos still go eat. actually not much difference larhhs just that softer taste not so nice.
end of everything the guys go bbq the peanut. haha ! then mrs ram and ms arayani ai yarhhs dont know how to spell. then boil the peanut also.
blahblah halfway during spa ran to toilet x= diarheo(dont know how to spell)
after spa went to toilet again-.- chinese was okays. recess. blahblah.
emaths very sleepy, awake but nothing goes inside. then physics spa. instead of 3 periods , it became 4periods-.- cant complete so eat away 2nd recess time.
haha ! didnt know how to do all the question keep tao answr from mrs low . in the end all the answer she tell me one x= went back class well also overshoot few minutes of 2nd recess time.
chemistry , nothing much. english 2 periods. felt very sleepy . so break my own promise i fell alseep. woke up feeling cold -.- it's a hot day. fell so drowsy.
amaths msng came in. blahblah sch over ! stayed back in class to complete the graph and amaths . if today nv hand in = detention.
faster do finish and went to band. WOOLALA ~ happy happy(: misunderstanding. thanks and sorry. :D
went to eat with shirly after band. walk around and home !
wednesday. sleep until 8.3o then woke up.
skip massrun . too lazy to run. what's weird is that my mum actually allow. kuakuakua ! she even call me dont go school instead. well ~ not in sacarstic way. real thing.
bathe etc and cab to school. went to and saw huanlin. she late also but she got the real clinic mc.
went in find mr molee. take the slip and then went back to class. huanlin kena detained cause she got real mc then molee wnat send her back home.
just nice go until 4th floor the 3n1 ppl came out.
saw timyiong at first then belvis. all see me say same thing. wah! so early horhhs . 9am liaos.
zzz~ went class same remarks. haven 5 mins and it's chinese. i am starting to like mdm anglengleng. she's so nice lorhhs
she ask where's huanlian then i say " molee want her go sick bay !" wahlaos paiseh. then she look at me her eyes open so big.
normally we dont greet molee as mr lee de marhhs. then always say mole lee use to it already.
then i faster change cause no time to think i just continued " ehhs ! nono ! teacher i mean mr MOLE" omg worst still. then she keep laughing but i dont knwo why until about 3osecs later then i realise i should say mr lee instead.-.-
cant blame what. normally surname at in front one. so molee infront mole lorhhs.
then kew and huimin keep laughing. mdm ang also.
then blah blah. i HATE ms lam. okays , whatever. i just dont like her.
didnt do geog homework . just nice dont knwo what happen the rest did. she dont allow me to look at the screen cause dont wnat me copy(as if i want) so call me read textbook. i just stare at book then she gave me homework. i keep drawing on textbook and she call me out to talk to me. whatever.
blah blah blah , school over!
went to cj's house. beautiful! seriously. suppose to one one storey condo but renovate until every room also like double storey.
did the social studies project in his house. actually the others went to play tennis but in the end nobody played.
turn out that didnt do much. did finish my geog homework and half of amaths. i still cant find my amaths textbook.
anyway cj's parrot . teeko one x= dont knwo why , just teeko. and she always find food in his mouth one -.-
went home at about 7 plus.
to someone who it may concern.
i need to clarify something . in the first place, i did not not acknowledge anyone of you. what did i do and say that makes you think that i think this way.
when your are trying to help the section, i did not stop or whatever. we all are seniors , i did not have even one reason to stop you to do so. and worst stil you used the word WRECK your plans.
i have never think of claiming any credits which things that are not DONE by MYSELF.
even if you want to give it to me, i would rejected it. i dont like to takes things which does not belong to me.
i did not wnat to have any recognition either. even IF i did want , did your ever give me ?
have you ever CONSIDER of my feelings also . me as a SENIOR, why would i not want to help the section
have you ever think, everytime i want to teach the section. who are the willing ones to lend the juniors instument.
it`s always that two or three instrument going around the juniors. even if i wnat to teach, how ?
whether the section is standing or not , it's up to how you see it. if you see it as fallen apart , it shall be. what`s your term of falling apart ? playing well? if it's so, i dont know what to say.
i have never treat your as an outcast either. i treat NOBODY as an outcast.
maybe i should clearly explain the reason of giving that post.
that post is NOTHING. it`s just a NAME. which define as SENIOR that make sure everything is alright.
there is no credits to it . NO . i wont mind if i lose the post. because for me it's not even A POST in the first place.
a post to me means another responsibility . not to show of or let other people know i`m the leader. what makes you think this way.
i can live without any post or recognition. i know what i have done and how much credits i deserve to it even if it means no credits.
if you dont understand me, please dont make it sounds like i want the post so much.
make it as if it meant so much for me . please dont make me stand on the same line with the other people.
it is not important of who own what position. i just dont get it why people see those posts so importantly.
why would i cry if i lose post. maybe if you were me you will but for me , no. i dont care much about having posts or not.
i dont hate you either. i just wnat you to know. before you make any stand or conclusion of anything. have you ever thought of WHY that particular person does this and that. have you ever consider or maybe a need to reflect on yourself of what your did to make the particular person do things the way they does it.
today post shall be in green (: it`s o7o7o7!
my msn nickname is in green. internet explorer skin in green. font green. i`m also in green.
also using greentea shampoo cause it`s green. HAH no larhhs just kidding .
mr heng did try to appeal to school that my class shall wear green yesterday but the appealing to principal has failed.
anyway yesterday during mother tongue lesson talk to zhanglaoshi about the shanghai trip thing .
she say another reason of why my appealing has failed is because i got alot of demerit points -.- according to mr justin . he checked .
wth , what did i do wrong? other than last year phyllis thia incident, i didnt de zui dao any other teachers lorhhs . so where did all the demerits points came from?
anyway she say try help me appealing lorhhs .
ystd lesson is utterly boring. very little ppl in class only . alot others went for they ushering of the australians.
school ends with 3 periods of chemistry spa. the lab was located at 1st storey. kept lookign out of the window. envy .
went for band after that. playing for the australians. 1st two times played 6 songs. 2nd 2 times played 5 songs.
the 3rd gourp which came in was so hyper! on of the students conducted us . fourth group quite hyper also. their conductor conduted us . jovi played a short mermaid solo. nice ~ (:
then went to hall to watch them perform. after that some of the band memerbs went to look for some of them and took photos.
after band went to eat at mc. hyekel lina and hyekel tell us so much on what happen when they are ushering. so fun! haha. heard that ehir conductor and teachers talked to mrsliang and mrsim telling them that we MUST go to perth.
well~ if i must choose between perth and genting, i would choose perth(: got chance going to perth. they WANT us to go x=
green green conversation

i did try to blog but after everytime i open up this window, i would click on the cross button on the top right hand corner .
school has been alright . nothing much also. start the day by having 3 periods of biology spa.
shared one lab with the odds . mrs ram was absent. so much 'accidents' keep hearing piang piang piang ~ money went rolling out from pockets . BUT it`s not me .
shihui NEARLY cause an explosion in the lab. i was sharing the same bench as her. she placed the ethanol(alcohol) beside the on bunsen burner -.- heng i realise it earlier @.@
well ~ sad news for me. my appealing to the trip to shanghai was rejected):. why? because i failed my overall. results too lousy. percentage 49.3. just o.7! if only i hav study hard. IF
but no matter what, i am goign to try appeal again. how thick skin. ._. cant blame what! it's such a rare opportunity okays!
14days to shanghai. FOURTEEN! but i can only appeal if only the trip was in dec or nov.
cause i`m going to appeal by calling them to look at my 3rd term results. mdm anglengleng say she will try help me appeal.
but going to look for zhanglaoshi she overall ic. if they allow . woah ~ going to chiong studies already (:
but cant put too much hope in it because MAYBE the school has already booked the air tickets.
BAND is going to have a music exchange with carrine(i didnt know how to spell) high tmr. have combine the whole day today.
left 3 hornists as the sec1s are not joining us tmr . aaron and marissa went for macbeth literature workshop. i thought darian have also but it`s seems that siyuan didnt have. so i dont know .
went home straight after band. aaron's father fetch (: thankyou.

